Listening: Disturbed - Down with the Sickness

So, another damned day with another damned fight with our divorced parents. Once again the children end up hurted, wounded and angry for being used and treated as things that don't understand what's happening nor why they are doing this, even though we're not stupid nor little kids, and even though we have showed them that we do care and that we do feel.

Why the heck do we become pawns on this stupid war? Why do THEY feel bad because someone sided with the other party, when they cannot and DONNOT see that it's the kids whom get badly hurted and NO ONE sides with us?!

Will someone someday see that? That the real victims of divorce is not the parents but the childrens whom some times don't understand what's happening nor why? And wors yet, when we're raging against one parent, usually they other side doesn't help dispell those feelings, and sometimes they do help us, but not always.

Heck, this hasn't been a good month, not even for a while. Stupid fights. Stupid works. Stupid life. Stupid things people do.

Hmmm, and here I was, hopping I wouldn't writte anything about me here, but hell, things change.

And yet, they act all worried when we're mad and don't want to eat or to speak or just want to be left alone, or worst, call us inmature for being "selfish and not understanding their feelings" and what the hell with OUR feelings?!?!

Hell, I'm just ranting for this stupid fights and tired of being told over and over again "you don't understand" "you're too small to understand this things" "you'll understand when you're older", and they tend to forget that when parents get divorced we grow up faster than the average kids and we DO understand!!

So, now I'm trying to understand if I'm being inmature or selfish by ranting to no one but letting other people read what I think and some of what I've kept inside me for many years now. Too bad it doesn't help me feel any better. Who said being the child of divorced parents would be easy? Who said trying to help others out will be easy?

. . . Well, I had forgotten that frustrating thing. Tried to help out a couple of DA users, but I guess I tried to get to them in a wrong manner. What's done is done. Perhaps I could help them and some other people latter.